In some views, I’m definitely a New Age Girl.  In a way.  If one were to pigeon-hole me, that’s the hole one would put me in.  I’ve said a LOT of that stuff in the video.

And yet, I don’t generally label myself anymore.  About much of anything.  That feels better.  (Do New Age Girls say that, too?  They might!)

I just saw an ad a minute ago at the beginning of a video that drew me in.  I realized early on it was for Mormonism.  Even though I’m not really into religion in that way, I couldn’t help but watch.  This guy was really inspiring.  (No, I’m not becoming a Mormon.)  A guy named Nnamdi Okonkwo.  I was really inspired by this short ad from a Mormon dude.  He’s a sculptor.

I think maybe he’s a famous basketball player.  At one point in his story, he said, “and the rest is history” related to basketball.  I don’t know that history.  That makes me laugh a little.

The point, to me, was how similar my views were to the those of this guy from Nigeria, a professional athlete (?) and artist, who is so strong in his religion he makes a video of it.

I am not encouraging Mormonism.  I like to say that God is too big for any one religion.  But there is truth in everything.

Here is what I take from this experience:  we are all coming together.  The lines that separate are blurring more and more.  We are all one.

Here is my favorite part of what Nnamdi had to say.  This is how I feel about what I do, too.

“I realize it is the human soul that I am in love with. The joy of humanity that I am in love with.  And these forms become sort of like the house, an edifice, that houses this noble, majestic spirit of man or woman.  I don’t know how I do it, I just do it.  This is the best, doing something that I love to do.  Something that comes from my heart.”  -Nnamdi Okonkwo

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When he came home, he never wanted to help me out or clean up after himself.  Sometimes, seemingly randomly, he would have emotional breakdowns.  He seemed somehow fragile.  But our family had gone through a lot of change.  I accepted it.  What could be done, right?

One day, Zane wanted to hang out in the yard after I picked him up from the bus.  I wanted him to come in the house.

He stated, quite vociferously, “I NEVER get to do what I want to do!  ALL DAY I do what everyone ELSE wants me to do!”

My initial reaction was the conditioned one… welcome to life, kid.  Or, maybe worse… just quit whining and do what you’re told.  Again, that’s life, right?

I decided, instead, to really hear him.  Because it’s the frustration we all have.  Because we are conditioned to allow that.  We are conditioned from the very start to please everyone ELSE.  Zane’s complaint was all of ours.  And it really doesn’t have to be that way.  It’s not The Truth of Life.  It only seems true if we comply.  I had to rethink this.  I knew it.

In December, Zane caught a bad cold. He missed a week of school.  It happened to be the week before holiday break.  So, he was home for 3 weeks.  He blossomed.  I never sent him back.  (I make it sound easy, but trust me, it was a process.  A very universally guided process.)

We can allow our kids to please themselves.  We can teach ourselves to please ourselves.  This does not create a world of selfish, greedy people.  This creates a world of fulfilled people who love to give because they love to give.  Not because they should or have to.  This creates full hearts, joyous lives, creativity, and true generosity.

Unexpectedly, in setting him free, I also set myself free.

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Believe.
Believe.
Believe.

And you will
find each other.

The Surrender
and the Presence.
The Sanctuary
and the Traveler.
The Opening
and the Penetration.

It exists.

When Lovers meet,
True Divine Lovers,
they don’t start
by loving each other.

This is the secret.

They love Love.
They bow before it.
They give all.
They surrender
completely.

And then God says
Yes.
Because God is always
saying Yes.
It’s just we don’t
always hear Her.
But when we surrender,
there is a quiet space
that allows Him.
The yes is always there.
Now.
Glorious now.
Now we can hear.

We meet with our hearts
before God.
When our hearts are before God,
who else would we meet
but one whose heart is also before God?
And what will happen
but Love?
It is so easy!
So much easier
than we thought.
No thought is required.

And what happens
when Those Beings
come together?
They are brought together
by God.
They are magic.

We meet with our eyes
watching God.
We trust Life.
We share What Is.
In trusting Life,
we allow All.
In sharing What Is,
we meet.

We are taken in.
We are held.
We are accepted.
We are loved.

Must say this again…

We trust Life.
We share What Is.
In trusting Life,
we allow All.
In sharing What Is,
we meet.

We are taken in.
We are held.
We are accepted.
We are loved.

This is being taken to God.
And in fact,
we never left.

When God
moves through us,
our layers
come off.
And we meet
naked
for the first time.

All comes through.
All is natural.

All flows
because we love Love
and we let
Existence Take Care.
All is ease and grace.

In this space,
The body of the lover
is a temple
where we worship.
It is always sacred.
It can be sensual
quiet
loud
naughty
funny
brazen
wanton
sweet
And it is.

When Love is put first,
All what comes through
comes through Love
and shines beauty.

In this space,
sexuality
arises naturally.
Movement by movement
one touch
one kiss
one sigh
follows
another
in glorious flow.

Each moment,
just noticing
what is there
and flowing
in the stream
of Life.
All is fluent
and inspired.

When the heart leads,
the body burns
with fire
for the Beloved.
When the heart opens here,
new levels of sensation
are found.

When the heart reigns,
All is Holy.

When Love explodes,
tears rain.

And we say
Oh, God!
Thank you.
Oh, God!
Thank you.

This is being taken to God.
It is not only the best
bedtime story,
it is Divine Truth
and Birthright.

If you’re not
being loved
in a way that
takes you to God
you should be.

Believe.

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This question popped up in my mind during a conversation today.  It came from a specific internal struggle I’ve been working through, for… oh… I dunno maybe my whole life?  But definitely in the past year.

When do I get to feel secure?

At first it seemed a very valid (if whiny) question.

And then, it about sent me into peals of giggles.  What a RIDICULOUS question!!!  Especially because I KNOW the answer.  It’s a paradoxical answer.  Want to hear the answer?

It is both right now and never.

What?  How can that be true?

Right now… I can feel secure right now.  Of course I AM secure right now.  Duh.  Right?  Right now, I am totally secure.  In this now moment, I’m fine.  And even if not everything feels perfect, I’m fine.  I’m secure.  Done.  Duh.  So easy.  (The real answers are so often like that, aren’t they?  Bam!  It’s there.  It was there all along.  There’s no place like home…)

So yes, I can feel secure right now.  The Universe has my back.  And TRULY, right now, I’m secure.  Again, done.

Also, I can feel secure never.

Never?

Never.

Why is THAT?  In a way, security is death.  Wishing for security is to wish for sameness.  You want to know that things are not going to change.  That’s just not the way life is.  And when I really search inside my true heart and feelings and everything I’ve learned on my spiritual path… I don’t even WANT that kind of security.  It’s fuckin’ BORING!  Life is MEANT to be a grand adventure.  Life is meant to be LIVED, not planned.  It lives through us.  Letting life live through us and taking us where it may is the biggest gift.  When we are in a spirit of trust and security even without KNOWING where it’s going, we experience surprises, delights, wonder, and the sweetest bliss there is.

All we gotta do is trust in the benevolence of the all.  That’s simple, right?  Well, it can be.  But maybe if it doesn’t feel that way, just start with this moment.  Start to see benevolence in this moment.  And then look for it in the next moment.  And rest and relax into it.  Begin to see what happens.  Your awareness of the Benevolence around you will expand into every corner of your existence if you let it.  But just start where you are at.   All the security and adventure in the Universe rests in your own heart, if you let it.  And together, they are WOW.  Just wow.

Love to you, Friend.  Feel free to tell us about your journey of security and adventure.

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The fragrance of this Love

intoxicates even God

in its majesty.

Yes!  God is drunk

on the majesty of your love.

Does this surprise you?

Who do you think God is?

God is the biggest lovedrunk of all.

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I have fallen in love
with Love
and I may never get up.
Don’t try to rescue me.

My every breath is devotion.

I am mad
wild
unhinged
completely naked
and natural.

My heart beats to the Universal pulse.

Do not come for me.
I am home.
Love has enraptured me,
destroyed me,
turned me into flowers
that burst forth
in the Heart of All.

They give only sweetness.
Sweetness of the Beloved
Love.

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But somewhere along the way, many people lose sight of the beauty of this gift.  Our society teaches us to search for joy and avoid sorrow, without realizing there is joy to be found in every feeling.  Fear takes us because we think we must avoid or resist what we consider unpleasant.  But every feeling is meant to be fully experienced.  And avoidance or resistance does not cure unpleasantness in the human heart.  It stores it.

Because of this, many people go for years, or perhaps their whole lives, with a heart stocked full of pain.  They may even be consciously unaware of it.  Most of us are taught this way as if it is the only way.

What happens when a heart is stocked full of unpleasantness?  In one scenario, you simply find an unhappy, unpleasant person.  They just live it.  In another, you find a person with an internal battle.  They feel they must appear happy because it is expected.  They hide the pains in their heart to appear “normal”.  And then we have legions of people walking around, not experiencing the beauty of Love because they either live their pain or their drama.

And then, one day, a magical thing happens.  The heart begins to open to Love.  This feels wonderful.  At first.  And it is.  It’s the most brilliant happening in Existence.  Cherish it.

In opening to Love, we open to All That Is.  That includes everything that is blissful, wonderful, and joyous.  It also includes the pains and sorrows of Existence.  Pains and sorrows don’t disappear because our hearts are full of love.  In fact, an open heart will often feel these pains more acutely.   This can come as a shock to the newly opened heart.  What?  I opened to LOVE, not PAIN!  The truth is that Love is only Love when it embraces all, and that includes the ouchie parts of everything.

Moreover, now that the heart is open, often that old, stocked up pain will come out.  What?  MORE pain?  Screw this Love business.  Seriously, when we first begin to open our heart and find pain, there can be a HUGE impetus to close it back up.   If it happens to you, simply stay with it.  Allow it.  Embrace it.  The opened heart begins to understand the beauty of feeling All and is willing to embrace the All.  The open heart is willing to be vulnerable.  There is great strength in this.  The heart  does not have to be perfect.  It cannot exclude any feeling and still be Love.  And so the opened heart, it welcomes All.

This is not to seek or hold on to pain.  It is the opposite.  It is to look at the pain that already exists or the pain the comes.  It is to greet it with the Love of the open heart.  This simple allowing of any pain, new or old, has the power to transform our demons.  They may or may not go away.  (We cannot do this just to get pains to go away — that is a trick of the mind.)  But they no longer hold as much power over us.  We see the pains.  We make friends with them.  Because we recognize that we have hurts, we allow energy and space to nurture the parts of our selves that hurt.  This is a very beautiful way to live.

Often, we realize that new pains are just reflections of old pains.  When we apply Love to the old pains, new pains are understood and transformed.  We begin to see the lies we have been living.  A lie is simply any place in our life where we are living anything but Love for our Selves (which includes the All).  And what an immense gift to be shown these places.  When these places are enlightened with Love, the heart expands and allows more Love to pass through it.  We cherish the beauty in ALL feeling.  And this expansion happens infinitely.  There is always more Love. <3

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In the truest scenario of love relationships, we do not go into relationship with another person to receive love.  We go into relationship with another person to give the love we receive in abundance from the divine.

This last part is key.  Sometimes people get that love is about giving.  And they give and give and give and feel depleted.  There must be receiving as well.  First, from the divine.  That’s the key.  Then you will never be depleted.  The divine has an infinite flow that is always, always available to All.  Only then are you able to drop the conditions on your love because you fully embody that your needs are already met.  What need could you have?  They have all been fulfilled.

Again, if you ever feel you need love, do not look to a human, but to the divine, which is the true source.  Go into your center, in whatever way works best for you.  Prayer, meditation, nature, music, art, the list is endless…  You know the right place for you to go to receive divine love.  The divine is always as close as your own heartbeat, your own breath.  And when you do go into it, whatever comes from a human is not needed.  It is just added blessing.  Gratefully receive this as well!  And you are a blessing to them in your giving and your receiving.  Then love multiplies exponentially and flows out to the All.  When there is need, it  attracts more need and you go on strangling each other with conditions until you think you might die of love.

Don’t ever die of love.  Live from love.  Give from love.  Drop conditions.  They are not love.

This is how relationships are meant to work.  Give all your needs to the divine.  Open to the constant, infinite source of Love there.  Let it fill you.  Let it spill from you until you cannot wait to share it with another.

Many of us seem to do this naturally in the beginning.  (Of course, some do not.)  We come into a relationship beautiful and whole.  We share that beauty and wholeness with another and vice versa.  And it feels SO GOOD!  But then we can get confused.  We can become addicted to that good feeling, thinking it came from the other.  We think we need them to be a certain way or do or say a certain thing.  Or that WE need to be a certain way or do or say a certain thing to KEEP their love.

And that is where the lie is.  The good feeling did not come from the other, but from the mixing of our divinity.  Sharing your divine love sparks the return.  But in our confusion, we sometimes close off our faucet to divinity.  If you see this happen to you, no worries… just take a pause and turn it back on!  It’s still in the same place it was.  This may feel easier said than done.  But in some ways, it is that simple.  Align yourself with your divinity.  Over and over and over again.  This is the work.

Also, do not be confused that requiring nothing from your partner means you act like a doormat.  This does not mean choose (or stay in) unhealthy situations for yourself.  You can still be discerning in your choice of partners and situations.  Please do!  This also does not mean hide feelings from your partner as they arise.  You can clearly share the truth of your heart without requiring any specific response.  Especially if you HAVE been discerning in your choice of partner.  There is trust and safety.  But in any circumstance, whatever response you receive is a blessing.  It is a mirror showing us who we are.  This is the benevolence of the Universe.

Amazing things happen when you find and join with another doing the same thing: sourcing from the divine and spilling over onto you.  Allowing you to be just as you are.  No need to fulfill something in them.  No need to change.  Simple allowing of your being.  Freedom. Expansion. Love.

But really, any time love comes through your heart, amazing things happen.  Don’t wait for a partner!  Just as you shower divine love on a partner, you can shower divine love on the All and allow the All to be just as it is.   Then you see the All blossom before your eyes like a beautiful garden and you wonder why you waited so long.

Please share your insights with us in the comments below!  If you like this perspective on love, please share this post. If you would like more in-depth specific information about one of your relationships (lover or otherwise), check out my Love Charts service.  Namaste.

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Wow! What a whirlwind time the last month has been, yes?  It certainly has been for me on a personal level.  MASSIVE change.  Not always easy, but definitely benevolent and beautiful at its core.

For those who might not know this yet, we are currently inching towards the end of a longer-than-usual eclipse season.  Eclipse seasons happen twice/year and generally include two eclipses that occur about two  weeks apart, with some energy circulating around those two weeks.  THIS eclipse season actually includes three eclipses, extending the season by another two weeks.  Basically, that means big changes starting in the end of May and continuing through the first week in July.  (The final eclipse occurs on July 1st, 2011.)

Eclipses have been described as “wild card” times and portals to new dimensions.  Since I’ve started watching them, I’ve definitely seen them as heightened phases when we can make great leaps in short amounts of time.  Of course, that can freak out our little human selves, who tend to like SOME semblance of security.

Security is a big issue right now since the sun (and upcoming new moon eclipse) are in the sign of Cancer.  Cancer rules home, family, motherhood, security, etc.  Cancer is a sensitive, emotional water sign.  Cancer likes to hold on to the past (think hoarders).  So, couple all this knowledge with the fact that we are in the last phases of the moon (wind down) before the New Moon Eclipse in Cancer, and what do you get?

It’s a time to let go of things that might be hard to let go of.  Huh?  Cancer doesn’t want to let go, but the end of the lunar cycle coupled with the eclipse are putting the pressure on to do so.  Whatever you are emotionally, physically, or spiritually hoarding, it’s time to let go.  OUCH!  Yeah.  It’s not always easy.  But, in doing so, we cooperate with the Benevolent Universe and can make quantum leaps forward into the lives of beauty that are waiting for us.

Plus, because of the longer than usual eclipse season, we may be feeling like we have been running a marathon of change.  (We have.)  I think the Universal intelligence is really, really brilliant on this one.  We’re exhausted, so hopefully we won’t put up too much of a fight when it comes time to let go.

So, how can you most benefit from this time?  What can you do to cooperate?

First of all:  RELAX.  Tensions are running high.  People are freaking out.  There is some sadness and grief and intensity.  That’s really, really normal in times of change.  Recognize that this tension is always temporary.  Everything has a cycle, a flow.  Relax into it, whether you are feeling it internally or seeing it externally.  (And if you’re not… GREAT!  Relaxing is STILL a good thing to do.)  Do what you can to nurture yourself in quiet ways:  baths, walks, yoga, music.  Encourage others to do this as well.  Increase the peaceful vibrations in yourself and you radiate them out to the world around you.  The less we fight what IS, the more we enjoy ALL that IS.

Secondly, consciously let go.  Once we are relaxed, we can see that all is ok.  We can see that the things that need to leave us are no longer serving us.  We can see that all this extra stuff we’ve hoarded is clogging up the system, keeping the good stuff from getting in.  So, cooperate with the process.  The process is happening anyway.  You really can’t stop it.  Breathe, release.  Consciously let things end as they are ending.  Bless the endings.

It’s also a great time to work on decluttering and cleaning your house.  As above, so below.  Our physical space is energetically linked to us and vice versa.  Same thing with your body.  Cleansing the physical body on the inside and/or out is a great way to cooperate with these energies.  I was drawn to do a cleanse at this time.  Letting go.

When we let go, we are essentially giving the details of our lives up to the Universe or God.  Our little human selves get scared of this.  We think it means some sort of death. We think we will lose control.  Maybe it is and maybe we do, but what REALLY happens behind it all is that we can just relax and enjoy the ride.  We don’t have to control anything.  It’s always done for us.  And so much more joyful when we realize this.

And the reward for all this letting go and purging is the New Moon Eclipse on July 1.  At that point, we will see the beginnings of a new cycle.  The emptier you come to it, the more the Universe can fill it with grace and love.  Namaste, Friends.

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I’m not really sure it was the Moon’s “fault” per se.  (Of course, I don’t believe in “fault” anyway.)  I haven’t looked at the full moon chart or The Astrology of Right Now in detail.  I’m just using the moon here because it’s convenient, and, well, cute.  But, suffice it to say, SOMETHING energetic is sucka punching many of us.  So much so that it has hit me on the head along with my sucka punch.  So I’m going to make something of it.  This blog post.  And maybe help myself and some others in the process.  Maybe.

Incidentally, if you were not sucka punched by the Uni yesterday or recently, be happy. I still love you, and you are still one of my peeps.  I ain’t startin’ no victim club here.  And keep reading.  We all get sucka punched at one point or another.

So, what can we make of this?  I’m sorta thinking as I’m writing, so bear with me.  I believe in a benevolent Universe.  I have ample evidence and experience of this.  I will not go into that evidence and experience now.  If you are willing to go with me on the Benevolent Universe Theory, stick with me.  If not, go watch Fox News or something.  (Just kidding.)

But here’s a news flash: when asked on my Facebook status if people were sucka punched yesterday, I have received even more overwhelming confirmation, including this somewhat representative quote from my dear friend Natalie at The Whole Mama:  “OMG – so huge and absolutely viletastic and completely out of left field that I’m still trying to find my centre.”  (Yes, she’s British, it’s ok that her r comes before her e.)

So, believing in a benevolent universe, something good must be coming from all these sucka punches, right?  What can be good of this?  Remember my original definition of the sucka punch… “shocking news that generally doesn’t appear to be good.  I used a lot of qualifiers there for a reason.  Read on…

A sucka punch wakes you up.  The very shocking nature of it is painful and also a little bit funny.  Like when your brother hides and socks you one as you walk around the corner.  Even though, by it’s very nature, it sucks, let’s be real.  Surprises are good for us.  They form new pathways in our brain.  They remind us that life is exciting.  They make us more AWARE.  We pay attention.  That’s always a good thing.

From a law of attraction perspective, the sucka punch shows you very clearly what you’ve been putting out to the Universe.  What you receive is ALWAYS a vibrational match to what you’ve been putting out.  Always.  So, it’s good to know what we’ve been putting out.  Not in some namby-pamby amount of time like weeks, months, or years.  In one fell swoop… BAM!  Didn’t like that?  Change.  Without such clear feedback from the Universe, we might just limp along continuing to create what we don’t want without noticing as much.  The sucka punch is such a delightful wake up call.  OW!

If you’re reading this, chances are you are on some sort of path of awareness.  Many on this path have been going through a huge metamorphosis in recent years.  We are birthing much better lives.  And one of the things we’ve been called to is an understanding of patience and universal timing.  These new lives sometimes feel like they are taking FORevah.  (They’re not.)  It seems that time and time again, we think we have arrived only to find out, “Nope, not QUITE there yet.”  Be patient, Grasshoppah.  I think this is another gift of the sucka punch.

When we have patience, it comes from an inherent understanding of the benevolence of the Universe.  It comes from an inherent understanding that everything is all right.  I can only have patience when I trust the unfolding of the Universal plan.  When I let go of my smaller self to merge with the oneness of the larger Self,  I don’t have to do anything.  I don’t have to fix anything.  It’s all done for me.  I am in exactly the right place.  I will be inspired to do exactly the right thing at exactly the right time.  All is well.

And… isn’t it a glorious process?  Isn’t it FUN that we don’t KNOW exactly how it’s going to turn out?  We may know where we’re going (more love and joy), but we don’t know how we are going to get there.  And isn’t that delightful?  We can enjoy every step of the journey.  We can stay in the now.  We can be joyful regardless of outer circumstances because the outcome is assured.  And then, ummm… we are already there.

I think these are major gifts.  Thank you, Sucka Punch.

I do want to be clear about one thing.  I’m not asking you to negate or ignore the suckiness of the sucka punch.  Feel free to own it.  But don’t let it own you.  I remember reading about some indigenous culture somewhere that advocated telling your story to three people and then letting it go.  That gives your sucky story ample attention to be heard and validated so that it can be given up to the light instead of being pushed into the dark recesses of your psyche.  Be clear about where you are and then move towards relief.  This is how we honor our experience and become MORE.

So, how you gonna use this sucka punch wake up call?  To wake up?  To be more self aware?  To make needed adjustments to your thoughts, words, and actions?  To be more patient?  Or to blame and find fault and be a victim?  You gonna pick yourself up outta your funk or go deeper in?  The beautiful thing is that the Universe is sooooooo benevolent it lets us CHOOSE.  It’s all up to us.  What are you gonna choose?

Outta my sucka punch and awareness of the Sucka Punch Moon, came this blog post.  I hope it touches the hearts of many to use their sucka punches as benevolent gifts from the Universe.  I hope you share it with someone you love who has been sucka punched.

Tell us in the comments what good is gonna come outta your Sucka Punch…  I dare ya!

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